Now I Begin,
Now I Begin,
Complacent, I once said,
“I shall never be shaken.”
Lord, you showed me favor,
established for me mountains of virtue.
But when you hid your face
I was struck with terror.
Complacent: marked by self-satisfaction especially when accompanied by unawareness of actual dangers or deficiencies (Merriam-Webster)
My husband once remarked, “People only pray when they’re in trouble.” I couldn’t help but see a little bit of truth in his words. There was a time when if things were out of whack for me, a seemingly endlessness of stuff going wrong, I was more likely to make sure I said my prayers, made sure I got my butt to mass, basically made sure I was being good. Things would get better. God turned my mountains into molehills and I would once again become complacent, and less fastidious…back to the “I shall never be shaken,” until the next catastrophe and “I was struck with terror.”
Now I try to live my life in God’s best image always, no matter my personal circumstances. Does bad stuff still happen? Absolutely! The difference is being fortified by God on a regular basis instead of on the as needed regime, I find that I am stronger and more prepared to handle life’s complications.